Sunday, February 28, 2010

Feb.28th-month 2 done!

I am so sorry that I have been MIA for a few days. I have just not been feeling that great and literally have just been surviving. Last night, I got to go out on a date with my hubby and just did not want to blog when we got home. So, here I am. WOW-February is done! I am two months into this journey and still feel pretty good about the whole thing. I do admit that I have fallen off the wagon a little over the past few days with not eating great and not exercising, but tomorrow is a new day and a new month. That means it is time to set some goals. Hmmm....

Goals for March:

1. Cardio exercise at least 20 days of the month.
2. Finish up Jillian's 30 day Shred.
3. Journal consistently and keep track of calories.
4. Continue with the closet clean out. Purge, purge, purge.
5. Pick out a color to paint the playroom.
6. Decrease work stress by doing less work at night.
7. 2 dates with hubby (atleast!)
8. Continue to work on making time with my kids just be about time with my kids and not the "to do" list in my house.

Yes. That seems like a good list. I will weigh in tomorrow to get a starting weight for the month and get going. Let's hope it is a healthy month and that the weather finally gets warmer. I am so tired of being cold and not seeing the sun!

What are your goals for the month? How can I help you? Lord knows I need you all to support me-the least I can do is return the favor.

So, bring on 2010 for all of us-the year of trimming the fat in all areas because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK FAT IN!

That seems like a good list

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Feb.25th-feeling blah

I am not feeling so great tonight, so this will be short. I am going to try and get to bed at a decent hour and maybe a good night of sleep will help! I am supposed to work and get my hair cut tomorrow, so I just can not get sick.

Journal:
Breakfast: Egg sandwich
Lunch: bowl of tomato basil soup, 2 pieces of WW bread
Dinner: Pretzel sticks, sloppy joe, some dark choc covered raisins.

I did well until dinner, but I also started not feeling so great mid-afternoon. I literally just ate to know that I put something in my system. Nothing sounded good.

I am also skipping the Shred tonight. I don't think a low grade fever and Jillian go well together. Boo!

Back on track tomorrow hopefully...

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

Feb.24th-halfway

Nope, not halfway to my goals, not halfway through the Shred, not halfway through the month. I am officially 38 1/2 today. That makes it exciting to know that I still have 6 months until my next birthday. What a gift I am giving myself for my birthday this year. I should be at my goal weight by then. I should be a consistent exerciser, maybe even have a race under my belt. I will feel totally in control and that is probably the best gift of all!

Today was a good day. I got some paperwork done during the day, which lightens the load for tonight. I ate well and stayed on track. I finished my 30 day Shred workout and even upped the weights on some of the exercises. I got all of my fruits and veggies in. Probably did not drink enough water, but I never do. Too cold for water. Must have hot tea instead.

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: Dannon Greek yogurt, banana.
Lunch: Grilled Chicken Sandwich from McD's with lite mayo, Kellogg's blueberry crisp bar.
Snack: Fiber Plus bar, carrots.
Dinner: Filet and a big salad.
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.

See, that looks pretty good, doesn't it? Pretty good balance of the right stuff. And, I feel good. I will not take my health for granted. I have two people in my life that are battling cancer right now-I am so grateful for this healthy body.

Coming up on the end of the month. I think I will take some new pictures at the beginning of March to see how my body has changed. Need to reflect on how well I am balancing life-still LOTS of room for improvement. Definitely not halfway to that goal!

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Feb. 23rd-double shred

Well, I did it. I did not get my 30 day Shred done last night because of the reasons posted on yesterday's blog, so I made myself pay for it tonight. I did Jillian's 30 day shred twice in a row so that I am still on track. It actually went fairly well. I was pooped at the end of it, but feel good now. It will make doing it only once seem fairly easy tomorrow!

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: Dannon Greek Yogurt, banana
Lunch: Bowl of Chicken Noodle Soup, WW roll and piece of pumpkin choc chip bread at Great Harvest. Delicious!
Dinner: 3 small pieces of homemade pizza, yoplait yogurt
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.

I have no idea about the calories, but I think I did okay. I was starving when I got home and probably overate a little at dinner. I had a meeting that went over and did not bring a snack to tide me over. Once again, the lack of planning comes back to bite me!

Short post today because not much to report. The journey continues!

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Feb. 22-overwhelmed!

I had way too busy of a day. That would be why I am writing this on Tuesday morning instead of on Monday. I worked all day, had tennis tonight and then had to get my billing in for work. Left no room for anything else. I am behind on blogging, sleep, and shredding with Jillian.

So, what is the remedy? Better scheduling would be a good start. I am really working hard to modify my schedule so that I am not doing work at night. Hard to do as a self-employed person. I am going to do Jillian's 30 day shred 2 times today to remind myself why I do not want to miss a day. Oh, and I am going to try and get to bed a little earlier tonight. I don't do that well on 6 hours of sleep-wish I did.

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: Fiber Plus bar, banana
Lunch: Spinach wrap with hummus, muenster cheese and veggies. Crisp bar from Special K.
Dinner: Pork tenderloin, potatoes.
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.

I was proud of myself. My wrap came with a choice of chips, pretzels or Sun Chips. I actually asked if I could sub fruit and they said yes! So, I got an apple instead. I ended up not eating it yesterday, but I would have definitely eaten the pretzels if they had been there.

Overall, a good day, just a little too busy. Must find balance. That is one of the main reasons for this journey.

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Feb 21st-baby steps

Man, you never know where the inspiration is going to come from. I was listening to the radio the other day and was tuned into Dave Ramsey. For those of you who do not know him, he is a financial guy who gives common sense advice. He is great to listen to and Clay and I try and follow his principles. But, what got me is he said to a listener, "Stop. You are trying to drink water out of a fire hydrant."

Whoa! In that case, he meant that this listener was trying to do something with money in the wrong way. I heard it apply to me and my plan. Sometimes, I think we try and achieve our goals by thinking we have to radically change everything. Well, that does not work. Life gets in the way. If you start a diet and say to yourself, okay, no more candy, no more chips, no more alcohol, it is me and salads and water from here on out-you are doomed to fail. You are choosing the wrong path to success, just like trying to get a drink out of a fire hydrant. Instead, we need to take the path that moves a little slower, but is also much more manageable. I think that is why I have been more successful this time. I have managed to accept that there are celebrations, there are slipups, there are parties and by just enjoying those moments and then, and here is the key, getting right back on track, I really do not feel like I am sacrificing too much. I have my fun and enjoy myself and then turn around and get right back to eating the way I should and getting to the gym. No drinks from fire hydrants around here, only from the tap. :)

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: PB sandwich on WW bread, chai
Lunch: Turkey Sandwich on WW with Laughing Cow cheese and mustard, a few Sun Chips, applesauce.
Snack: Dried Peaches, Dark Chocolate covered raisins.
Dinner: Chicken Stir Fry with broccoli, carrots and beans over brown rice.

Overall, a pretty good day. I did my 30 day shred. I do not feel great tonight, but I think maybe the stir fry had MSG in it and that is making me feel off. Amazing how in tune you get with your body as you start to really take care of it.

And it was about 60 degrees and sunny today-nothing wrong about that! The kids got to play outside and we all got some fresh air. Made me excited for spring and longer days to take some walks and runs outside.

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Feb 20th-the secret to my success

Well, crap, I figured it out. Do you know how you can lose weight and keep it off? Do you want to know how to have more energy and feel better about yourself? Do you want to know how to feel stronger and increase your endurance? I have learned the secret and I want to share it. Are you ready? Drumroll please....

Eat right and exercise. Yep, that is it. That is what I really focused on this week and you know what? It paid off! I lost another 1.6 pounds this week. Thank goodness because I worked my tail off with my running and that 30 day Shred video. I would have been bummed if I did not lose. But, now I know for sure that the only way to take off weight safely and keep it off-diet and exercise. I wish there was a magic pill, but there is not!

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: 2 pieces WW toast with PB, tea.
Lunch: Protein bar and chai. I was working and had to eat on the run.
Dinner: Chicken Biryani, naan and some red wine. Delicious!

Definitely not enough fruits and veggies today. But, I did manage to fit in my 30 day Shred video after working all afternoon and before hanging with a friend,so that is good. I need a big glass of water before I go to bed to counteract the red wine. Highly recommend Menage A Trois if you are looking for an inexpensive bottle of red, by the way.

Since what I am doing is obviously working, I plan on continuing it. I have big plans for the week ahead for exercise and will plan on packing my lunch to help stay on track. That seemed to be a failing point this past week. I love feeling in control and knowing that I am succeeding. Yeah for me!

So, bring on 2010, the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Friday, February 19, 2010

Feb.19th-POOPED!

I am done, tired, exhausted, so ready for the weekend. Man, I did not sleep well last night, worked like a crazy therapist today and came home knowing I had to do my 30 day Shred workout. Not excited about it, but I survived. I do have to admit that as hard as it was to do, it was made easier by my 6 year old doing it with me and giving new names to the exercises. For example, he called the upright row "playing the drums" because you reach your arms out like you are beating on a drum. There is a visual for those of you that are doing this with me!

I am so glad I can just relax now. My muscles actually feel a little better after doing it-think I got the lactic acid moving. That workout is a killer-I am waiting to cross the threshold to where I feel like I maybe can think about moving up a level. For now, that is a far off dream! :)

Here is my journal:
Breakfast: Latte and a scone
Lunch: Protein bar, apple.
Snack: Banana
Dinner: Swordfish with sweet chili sauce, mixed veggies.

I was starving when I got home because my lunch was so wimpy. I was at a little bit of a disadvantage today. It is Lent and I do not eat meat on Fridays and did not pack my lunch. I had NO time for lunch today, so I just ran into a convenience store and grabbed a protein bar. Did not quite cut it. Must plan better next week.

I am excited to see my weight in the morning. I have really upped the exercise this week and am anxious to see how that pays off on the scale.

Good things are happening all around me because I am making good choices. I am excited to see what lies ahead...

So, on that note, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Feb. 18th-I know I can!

So, do you ever read "The Little Engine that Could" to your kids? You know the part where the little train says "I think I can, I think I can, I know I can, I know I can" or something like that? That is how I felt today at the gym tonight and back at home doing Jillian's 30 day shred. I really had to push myself through it, but guess what? I DID IT! I survived both my 5K and my 20 minutes of torture from Jillian. I will admit that I am really sore and can't believe I need to do that 30 day shred again tomorrow, but I will face that when I get there.

I think I did a little better on my 5K. I write that I think I did because I accidentally hit the emergency stop button about 31 minutes in to my workout and the treadmill stopped and erased my data. Big bummer! So, I was about 2.5 miles in, so I started it up again and ran another .6 to get my 5K done, but I am not sure of the time. I feel like I ran more of it, so my time should have been a little better. Oh, well-I will see how I do on Saturday. For now, I will be happy that I got there and did it. Then I came home and went downstairs and did my 30 day shred workout. It actually felt a little better tonight, mainly because I feel like I knew what was coming. I was still really tired by the end of it. My body is pooped!

Here is the food journal:
Breakfast: Banana, Fiber Plus bar.
Lunch: Turkey sandwich from Jimmy John's, Skinny Chips
Snack: Venti Chai Latte
Dinner: Taco meat with tomatoes and red peppers. Skipped the taco shell.
Post workout: Lite yogurt.

Supposed to have protein after you workout I think, so I skipped the hot chocolate for yogurt tonight. Drank some water today, but probably not enough. Did well on the fruits and veggies. Pretty good overall. Not sure of the calories only because I have not logged it in yet, but I should be good for the day, esp. because of the workout.

So, to Apolo, I can only give an "almost yes" today. Close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades, so I need to do better tomorrow. I hope that I can get going with a resounding "I know I can" tomorrow. Because, you know what, I KNOW I CAN!

So, bring on 2010, the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

February 17th-YEAH BABY!

I did it! I have had a super awesome, focused day. I have had a day where the stars are aligned, my focus has been good and I have stayed on track. I can honestly say that all of the choices that I have made today have worked towards making me a better person-strong and healthy. Yeah for me!

So to you Apolo Anton Ohno, I say yes. Yes, I did it. Yes to the question you ask yourself everyday. I can't say that it will always be a yes, but I can say that today I got it right on the money. I made choices to win and not to fail. I resisted all temptation. I was productive and focused.

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: Fiber Plus bar, banana, tea
Lunch: Tabouleh, Hummus, Pita
Dinner: Shrimp with brown rice and broccoli
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.
Snacks: Tootsie Roll pop, string cheese stick

Total Calories: 1121 according to my fitness pal, but I am guessing on my lunch portions, so I think I am closer to 1200-1250 for the day.

I also started my 30 day shred with Jillian today. Oh boy, that was NOT easy. It is only 20 minutes long, but you work during that time. I used 5 pound weights for my arms and I think I will be sore tomorrow. I was able to complete it, but had to make a few modifications. Definitely will be sticking with Level 1 for a while.

So, let's see...Fruits and Veggies-check, Water-check, stayed within calories-check, exercised-check, worked to earn an income-check and most importantly, spent time with my family-check! Yep, good day. Going for a repeat tomorrow.

So, bring it on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK FAT IN!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Feb. 16th-it is an almost yes!

I had a great day. The snow was cleared off the roads, I got to work and I ate fairly well. But, the icing on the cake was getting to the gym tonight. Yeah for me! It is freezing out, but I was determined to get there and I did it. I ran a 5K in 38:28, which is a good time for me. Slow for a lot of you true runners out there, but I am making progress. The good news is that running felt really good tonight for the first time. I am not saying it was not hard, because it was, but I felt in my element and that my body was working for me. And, I did my ab workout after I ran, so I had a great workout. Yes!

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: 2 eggs, orange.
Lunch: Turkey sandwich, pretzels, Quaker Fiber Bar
Snack: Grande chai, carrots
Dinner: 2 slices homemade whole wheat pizza with Weight Watchers cheese and turkey pepperoni. A few teddy grahams.
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.

Damn Teddy Grahams! Man, those things are good! Must avoid the box at all costs. Tomorrow is the start of Lent and I have a LIST of things that I can give up that are a true sacrifice-I will have to decide what will be the best choice. Might have to be those little chocolate bears of decadent goodness-just kidding.

So, as far as the title of my blog tonight, I answer Apollo's question with an "almost yes". I did everything right, but had just a few slip ups on the diet-the midday pretzels and the elusive Teddy Grahams. Easy fix though and I burned off the calories at the gym. Yep, good day.

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Monday, February 15, 2010

Feb. 15th-more snow.

OK, I am officially over the snow. It is so pretty out and if I had an unlimited inheritance to live off of, then it would be great. But, I need to get back to work and be able to get out of my house! My tennis lesson was cancelled today due to the weather and I did not get to the gym because of the snow, so it was a day at home. We did have some friends over, which was great and a nice break up for the day. I am really looking forward to seeing the grass again and I think that we are in for another snow storm this weekend. Crazy weather!

So, as a result of being home all day, I had to face my pantry all day long. This is always a struggle for me-boredom has often caused me to reach for food. Today, I was very conscious of it though and really asked myself everytime I walked into the kitchen FOR NO APPARENT REASON if I was truly hungry. Do any of you struggle with this issue? I call it the Teddy Graham factor and I think it represents a true variable in people that have a happy weight and those of us that do not.

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: Oatmeal. Some yogurt covered raisins.
Lunch: Cup of chili, little bit of sour cream.
Snack: Pretzel sticks.
Dinner: Chicken with potatoes and carrots.
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate

Not bad for a day with a pantry calling my name. Tomorrow, schools are closed, so I am not sure how the work day is going to go, but I am going to try and make it out. I am going to pack my lunch to continue to stay in control.

As far as Apollo's question goes, I have to give it a "no" again today. I did well with my diet, but the exercise did not happen.

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Feb 14th-Valentine's Love

Happy Valentine's Day! Boy, this day started out interesting. I got out of bed this morning and my house was COLD. Turns out that our heat stopped working overnight and our house was 59 degrees this morning. BRRRR. Church truly was a refuge today. I took the boys and Clay stayed home to wait for the HVAC people to call. I had a text after church saying that the heat was back on, so atleast we got to come home, but we have no idea what the problem is and now we are waiting to see if it kicks off again. UGH.

Sooooo, as a result of the crazy morning, I had to throw down some breakfast and rush to get ready. Not the most enjoyable way to start the day. I did get a great card from my hubby for Valentine's reminding me that he loves me no matter what and my 6 year old told me as I was getting ready that I was "pretty good looking", so that was very reassuring. Nice to know that this journey is not about making those that I care the most about love me any more than they already do-they truly love me for me. That is a great gift.

ALright, enough sap. OVerall, a good day. We are getting snow again tonight and I needed to get to the grocery anyway, but it was a madhouse. I seriously felt like I was playing Frogger with my cart. But, we are stocked for the week and the menu is planned. This is a good thing.

Here is the diet:
Breakfast: 1 slice WW bread with PB.
Lunch: 1 slice pizza, 1/2 banana, few pretzel Goldfish.
Dinner: Bowl of homemade chili with lean ground beef, little bit of sour cream, a few Ritz crackers.
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.

So, I will take my "pretty good lookin'" status with my 6 year old and call it a day. I will watch the Olympics and ask myself the question. Today gets a "no", but I am confident for the week, snow and all!

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Feb.13th-we all struggle

I knew the Olympics would provide good inspiration, but I did not think it would make me realize how we all have to push through and make choices. I was watching the men's short track and there was an interview with Apollo Anton Ohno. The interviewer was asking him about what he did to prepare for the games and what he did to lose 20 pounds and be in the best shape of his life. He said something to the effect of "At the end of every day, I ask myself if I did everything that I possibly could to ensure success.". He then said that it is very hard to consistently say "yes" day in and day out. Wow! Really? So, even when it is your job to eat well and work out, you still struggle-well, no wonder it is so hard for me!

I have decided that I am going to ask myself the same question at the end of the day and see how many days I can emphatically say "yes". I do have to say that today is a big "no", but I made a choice to splurge a little bit. But, before we get to that, let's backtrack...

Weigh in first thing in the morning and...drumroll please...down another 1.4 pounds! Yeah! That makes a total of 7.2 pounds since January 1st. I am thrilled. I am not shooting for huge losses week in and week out, but just a steady change for the better and it is happening.

I knew that tonight Clay was going to see a basketball game with a good friend and I would be home with the boys. I told my oldest that we could splurge and get pizza. Atleast I knew that was dinner, so I could plan around it, but I also knew that it would push me over on my calories. That is okay-life is full of special celebrations. No problem as long as it is not everyday!

Here is the diet:
Breakfast: 2 pieces WW toast with PB
Lunch: 6 inch flatbread sandwich from Subway, baked Ruffles.
Dinner: 2 pieces pizza-cheese, green peppers, tomatoes. 1 breadstick. Piece of chocolate pastry thing from Papa John's-no good. Don't order it!
Dessert: Glass of red wine. Highly recommend "Menage a Trois".

I had such a nice dinner with my boys. We laughed and talked about our day. I am so glad that I get to enjoy these moments-pizza and all! Note to self-never get so caught up in your goals that you forget to enjoy the little stuff. It is truly what matters.

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Friday, February 12, 2010

Feb 12th-gravity

Well, today I realized the power of fat. You ask-what do you mean, the power of fat? Well, if you have fat enough thighs, they make a great "hill" for your clients to practice rolling down. For those of you that don't know what I do, I work with babies 0-3 years old. Today, I was working with a one year old and we are trying to get him to roll. Well, wouldn't you know it-I placed him across my thighs, he reached for a toy and away he went-full roll accomplished! OK,so this is not a reason to keep fat around, but it was nice to find a positive use for it, don't you think? :)

Today was a good day. I was focused, made good choices to help provide nutrition and keep me full and feel confident about my weigh in in the morning. I thought about the Olympics a lot today-if those athletes that represent our country can make that journey, then I should be able to make mine. This is a year for not only setting goals, but for achieving them. I feel empowered knowing that I am on my way with my goals and that I know that I can succeed.

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: Banana, Fiber One bar, Latte (needed some serious caffeine!)
Lunch: Black Bean chili, biscuit
Dinner: Filet.
Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.

I should have fit in some veggies with dinner, but I was still full from lunch and really did not feel like making them. Don't worry-my kids ate a more balanced meal than me!

So, as my weekend starts, so do the Olympics. I think everytime a craving hits, I am going to make sure that I turn on the TV and see what the power is in setting goals and achieving them. This is a good plan for the next two weeks. After that, I will have to look for a different source of inspiration. Will it be you?

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Feb. 11th-my body failed me

Today was a good day overall, but I had really planned on getting to the gym tonight and it did not happen. Why you ask? Because I just did not feel great after dinner. Such a bummer. Now that I am feeling better, it is 9:30 and too late to get up there. Really, I will get this workout thing going consistently. I am looking forward to when the days are longer, the weather is warmer and I can just go take a walk to fit in exercise. Right now, I would have to ice skate to make it on the sidewalks in my neighborhood!

I talked to two people today who are reading my blog. How cool is that? I hope that you all find it somewhat entertaining or at the very least, realize that you are not out there struggling on your own. I hope that my battles are ones that you too have faced and conquered. Please comment and let me know what you are doing that is working. I am obviously in need of the tools for success!

Here is the journal for the day:
Breakfast: Fiber One bar, banana, tea.
Lunch: Pita with grilled chicken and sauteed peppers, a few fries.
Snack: Tall chai. Gave in, but I did get the small size and Luke drank half of it!
Dinner: Pork chop, mixed veggies, little bit of stuffing.
Dessert: Diet hot chocolate.

I really wanted a salad today, but it is so cold out and sometimes the cold lettuce hurts my teeth-just could not do it. Once again, this will be much easier as the weather warms up.

I am going to get back on the scale this weekend. I have taken a little break from it because I felt like I was getting a little obsessed with the number and not just how I was feeling or how my clothes were fitting. It will be interesting to see what it has to say. I will let you all know-good or bad. Part of the journey is putting it out there, right? I figure if the people on The Biggest Loser can weigh themselves in public, I can at least give you a virtual update!

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Feb.10th-choices

Man, was I craving a Chai latte this morning! It was the power of this blog, of those of you that read this thing and the fact that I knew I had to journal it was what helped me say NO! I definitely would have given in otherwise-it was bitterly cold out today and it just sounded like the perfect antidote. I won't say that the hot tea I got was a great substitute, but it warmed me up and got me through the moment for zero calories. Good choice.

I also had to go to Target today for some stuff. Note to self: don't go to ANY store that sells food when you are hungry! I had to talk myself out of different snacks the whole time, reminding myself that my homemade white chili would be ready as soon as I got home. I did it, but really expended some mental energy getting through it. Not good planning, but a good choice at the end.

Got home from work and was really hungry. I knew how many calories I had left and knew I did not want to blow it. Made the choice to have a serving of pretzel sticks-get 48 of those little salty sticks in one serving-so it takes a while to get through them. By the time I was done, dinner was ready! Yeah for me. Good choice made.

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: 2 pieces ww bread with pb.
Lunch: Banana, yogurt, strawberry fruit bar, fiber one bar
Dinner: Cup of white chicken chili
Snack: Pretzel Sticks
Dessert: Diet hot chocolate

Overall, a good day. Got my fruits and veggies, got my water in and made smart choices. I needed to do a better job with the protein intake, so as always, there are things to work on.

The journey continues. Thanks for the help today!

So, bring on 2010, the year of making smarter choices to help trim the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Feb. 9th-support or sabotage

I have been so blessed in my life to have amazing friends. I have friends that I still keep in touch with from elementary school, high school, college, grad school and this phase called grownuphood! One of those good, good friends is Christine. Christine and I know each other from our college days and many summers spent in Montauk. We also both went to grad school in St. Louis. She currently lives in London and we do not talk or see each other often enough. However, she is one of those friends that when you do get together, it does not matter how much time has gone by, you just start where you left off and the laughter begins. Sign of true friendship.
Well, today I got a package from Christine. See, Christine and I exchange packages once a year. I send her candy corns every Halloween because she can not get them in England and she LOVES them and she always sends something in return. Well, this year she sent me a CD of running music and lotion for my hands and feet for after my runs. That is support! She has sent chocolate and crackers in the past, but this year, she sent something that supports my goals. Thanks my friend!

Her gift made me think of how environment is so important for success. I have to ensure that I am setting myself up for support and not sabotage. Support-going to lunch at a place with fresh foods. Sabotage-going out for Mexican with those damn baskets of free chips. Support-putting it out there that I am going to go to the gym so that my hubby helps me follow through. Sabotage-not telling anyone just in case I want to change my mind. Support-journaling on this blog. Sabotage-keeping a journal in my purse. Hell, I could write anything in there. No one would ever know! Support-hearing from those of you that read this blog that you are reading and that I am supporting you. WOW. Sabotage-deciding this blog was not worth the effort.

So, I thank all of you for supporting me and helping me to not sabotage my efforts. I hope that I can do the same for you. Matt, Addie and Julie-you know I am rooting you on already!

Here is the journal:
Breakfast: Kashi GoLean cereal, skim milk
Lunch: Soup, Ritz crackers, Fiber One bar
Dinner: 2 pieces homemade pizza with turkey pepperoni
Dessert: Spoonful of chocolate mousse. Diet hot chocolate.

So, tomorrow, I will load the CD onto my mp3 player and will get to the gym with 101 new songs to run to. I will continue to enlist those of you that support me. I will continue to put it out there that I am struggling and need support. I will continue to work to decrease the sabotages that are part of my world. This will be a year of success, not sabotage.

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Monday, February 8, 2010

Feb 8th-busy day AND night

This will be a quick post. Worked all day and then had tennis tonight. My regular instructor got hit today with a racket and was not at practice, so we had a new instructor and half the class did not show up. So, I actually got a pretty good workout out of it! So much fun. Tonight is billing night for my job, which always sneaks up on me, so I am out of time. I did want to get my journal in for the day though.

Breakfast: WW toast with egg. Banana
Lunch: Chicken noodle soup, 1/2 turkey sandwich, 1/2 piece lemon bread.
Dinner: Cinnamon apples, homemade chicken pot pie (ate very little crust).

Not a bad day, but always room for improvement. I am so glad I found time for me today, even with the craziness that is my life. I recommend it to all of you!

Be back tomorrow.

Bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Feb 6th and 7th-where did the weekend go???

I can't believe it is Sunday night at 10:15. Seriously, where did the weekend go? It was Friday and now bedtime on Sunday-just like that. I had a great weekend, although my focus on my journey was a little lacking. I do think that sometimes you need to break it up a little bit and that is what this weekend was. It is deciding that 1)you are going to stray a little bit and 2)knowing that you are going to get right back on track that matters. And, that is where I am. Tomorrow morning, the focus starts right back up again.

So, how did the weekend go astray? Well, let's see...date night Saturday and Superbowl party on Sunday. Yep, yep, that will do it! Even though my eating the rest of the time was not bad, those two events were enough to know that I was over on my calories for the weekend. I will weigh in in the morning to see how much I did myself in and then focus on the detox to get myself back on track.

Here is the diet:
Sat. breakfast: Oatmeal
Lunch: Lean Cuisine sandwich
Dinner: Grilled Grouper, rice, black beans, plantains and 2 mojitos. DELICIOUS and worth every calorie.

Sun. Breakfast: WW bread with PB
Lunch: Yogurt, some Goldfish. Trying to save up for party.
Dinner: Chili with a little sour cream and cheddar cheese, cornbread, 3 crackers with spinach artichoke dip, some chips, mom's famous chocolate mousse. Still to die for!

So, let's see-not enough fruits or veggies, not enough water, too much crap. Yep, I see some detoxing happening this week.

It is supposed to snow tomorrow, so I am hoping that my tennis lesson is still on. I am really enjoying it and even am starting to break a sweat, so this is good.

It will be a good week. I will speak it into existence. :)

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Friday, February 5, 2010

Feb. 5th-rain, rain go away!

What a gloomy day it was today. Literally, the sky looked exactly the same all day long. Gray, gloomy and pouring rain. Even though I got sleep last night, I was still tired. It is supposed to turn to snow tonight. We will see.

I talked to a few friends today who are having some health struggles right now and it just made me realize how grateful I should be to have this healthy body that supports me, regardless of my occasional poor choices. All of my health numbers-blood pressure, cholesterol, pulse-are well within healthy ranges. The weight number is the only one that is off. But, not for long...:)

I had a fairly good eating day today, but I still don't have my appetite where it should be. I have not been very hungry at night, so I am not eating a big dinner at all. I am then waking up starving. I need to work on a more even consumption during the day. Maybe focus on really breaking up the calories into even spurts, more or less, during the day. I would think that would also help with keeping my metabolism on track too. I think that will be my goal for this upcoming week.

Here is the diet for the day:
Breakfast: Egg sandwich, tea.
Lunch: Chicken Schwarma sandwich, hummus, water.
Dinner: Small portion of a filet. Green pepper, orange.

Not bad, but not great either. Need to continue to fine tune this plan.

So, Operation Clean Closet will start tomorrow also. I am going to actually start with my dresser. I have these neat little organizer things from IKEA that you put into your drawers, so I am going to get all of my unmentionables organized. One drawer at a time...

So, bring on 2010, the year of trimming the fat and the never worn unmentionables because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Feb 3rd and 4th-my ideal life!

It has been one of those weeks. Way too much on the to do list and not enough time. I am exhausted tonight, but knew that I couldn't leave my readers hanging another night...sorry to double up!

I was losing my steam a little for this journey. Not really sure why, but maybe just because I have not gotten enough sleep and just was losing my focus. Then, on the way home from work, I got to listen to the radio. There was a woman on named Stacey Vicari. She is a life coach. Her website is www.myideallife.com. I have seen Stacey speak and she is powerful, but what she talked about tonight was looking at what you can change in your life and deciding right now that you are going to change those things. Hello! Lightbulb! Aha!

So, I am back on track. Not that I ever fell off, I had just lost some steam. I WILL change the things that I can change and now that I think about it, most things in my life that I do not like are changeable! How great is that?

Here is the diet for the past two days:

Breakfast: Egg sandwich, tea.
Lunch: Indian food buffet.
Dinner: Yogurt, cheese stick. Pretty full from lunch.

Breakfast: Fiber 1 bar, banana, tea
Lunch: Falafel sandwich, tea.
Snack: Almonds
Dinner: Grande Chai, few bites of soup. Just not hungry.

OK, so my diet has not been the greatest the past two days. Like I have said, I have not gotten enough sleep. Not enough sleep messes with my appetite and I am sure my hormones-both things are not good for this journey, so I need to get back on track. I will be in bed by 10 tonight.

Please keep up the commenting and cheerleading. I need it and I will support you back. Let's reach our goals together.

So, bring on renewed energy and focus in 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Feb.2nd-Groundhog Day!

Alright people, who is with me? Who out there wants to see a SMALLER shadow of themselves next year? Me, me, me! Picture Donkey from Shrek jumping up and down shouting "pick me, pick me". That is how I feel about this weight loss journey. It is a journey and I know that the changes that I am making I want to last a lifetime. So, the goals have to be set that way. I need to not worry so much about how the jeans fit day by day, how the muffin tops look morning by morning, but by how I have changed month by month and that will translate into year by year. So, all joking aside, I am looking forward to seeing how the shadow changes.

Here is the food journal:

Breakfast: Banana, yogurt and Fiber One bar.

Lunch: 8 brown rice veggie sushi rolls, dried apples, Luna bar.

Dinner: Shrimp and Scallops with broccoli in a sweet chili sauce over brown rice.

Dessert: 3 bites of chocolate mousse. Still to die for. SOOOOOO good.

Day 2 of working out was also a success. I made it to the gym and onto a treadmill for my 5K. Not quite where I was 2 weeks ago, but that is what I get for slacking off. And, the girl next to me running at 7.4 mph was pretty motivating. She made it look so easy to just run like that-I wanna be like that.

It is supposed to be rainy and snowy this weekend, so it will be perfect for cleaning out the first closet. I think I will recruit a friend or two to help me sort-bribing them with a bottle of wine, of course!

So, bring on 2010-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

Monday, February 1, 2010

February 1st-new month, new goals

Well, the workout thing was easy to fit in today. Mondays are tennis nights-can't say that I sweat a lot, but it is nice to get out on the court, bash the ball around a little bit and use some muscles that I am sure I would not have used at home! My pronator will be sore tomorrow for example...

I have decided that for February I am going to also work on trimming the fat in the closets. WHO IS WITH ME???? I am going to tackle a closet each weekend and really work on packing up the boys clothes that don't fit, donating my stuff and getting rid of the crap that is just sitting in them. How great will that feel to open any closet in my house at the end of the month and see organization? Ah, I am already feeling more peaceful knowing that it is in the plans.

Today was a good eating day. I have figured out that having some fruit as part of breakfast really helps towards getting in the 5 servings. It is hard to do otherwise! I did eat a very late lunch, which was not a good plan because I was REALLY hungry, but I did try and focus on my choices. Dinner was at home, planned out by Clay and I over the weekend and so I knew what it would be all day long. Man, this planning thing REALLY has its advantages...:)

Here is the diet:
Breakfast: One piece WW toast, PB and a banana. Tea.

Lunch: Turkey sandwich on high fiber bread, pretzels.

Dinner: Green pepper to munch on while cooking, white chicken chili.

Dessert: Diet Hot Chocolate.

I actually think I did get in all 5 servings today-banana, dressed sandwich, green pepper, and corn and beans in the chili. WOOHOO for me.

I will have to really focus this week in order to get to the gym and fit in my workouts. For those of you that work full time and have kids at home, when and how do you do it? The idea of the 5 am workout in freezing weather is not appealing at all, but I will take all other suggestions! Maybe in the summer...

So, bring on 2010-the year of clean closets to make room for my new skinny clothes-the year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!

January 31st-the month in review

WOW! I made it. One whole month on this journey. I must say that I am pretty proud of myself. I did not get to blog last night because it was my mother's birthday and we just got home late and I got settled into the Grammys and Desperate Housewives. I know that you understand.

So, my dad called on Saturday and told me the menu so that I could plan. I knew that there would be LOTS of yummy food and that I needed to make wise choices the rest of the day to help compensate for the festivities. This was a day I could have used some Weight Watchers Zero Point Soup-I will need to look up that recipe. Regardless, I did eat very lightly and enjoyed myself at my parents. I went over there hungry, but not starving and did not dig into a bag of chips as soon as I got there. I did have 2 though!

Here is the diet:
Breakfast: Oatmeal with fresh blueberries

Lunch: Cottage Cheese, Apple Parfait thingy from Del Monte, Fiber One Bar

Dinner: Small serving of homemade Fettucine Alfredo, corn soup and to die for chocolate mousse for dessert. Seriously delicious!

Not bad, right? I did have broccoli on my plate, but my 2 year old snagged it and who am I to turn down a toddler that wants to eat broccoli?

As the month comes to an end, here are my celebrations:

Weight Loss: 5.6 pounds for the month. This is after weighing in after the birthday party.

Journaled EVERY day this month.

Figured out some of my triggers and really made wise choices.

The jeans are going on a little easier! Even just out of the dryer-I know some of you out there understand! :)

Things I need to work on are consistent workouts. I did great with this in the beginning of the month and then got sick and then just had no excuse, but still did not do what I needed to. I also need to make sure that I am packing my lunch more consistently. Grilled Chicken sandwiches get old quickly and I truly believe that the body does not like to eat the same thing day in and day out. Packing my lunch will offer some variety!

So, for February I feel like my eating overall is well under control, the workout consistency must become a routine and I need to figure out another area to work on trimming the fat!

So, bring on FEBRUARY 2010-the month and year of trimming the fat because I have determined that YOU CAN'T TUCK THE FAT IN!